My week has been ok so far, nothing too heart-stopping nor droney. Same ol' same ol'.


My money's kind of drying fast. Two things to look forward to, dinner with Matin and Qistina ((: and going out with Kat and Zhong. Cannot wait!


Oh and of course looking forward to teaching the dopey duo (and quiet sidekick Adela) tomorrow. You know, when you feel kind of down kids as wacko cracko annoying like them makes the day with all their nonsense (Rolls eyes x100).


Boarding again tomorrow. I had such a splitting headache while at it just now I canceled tuition with the primary schoolers. Maybe it's God's way to tell me to stick to the older matured and un-bratty students but well we can't all be choosy.

The sky looked so clear the moon shines like... well the moon. -.-
Such a tiring day gosh.
Oh ya his cat died he looks so sad. Poor Fussy (who was really ancient).



I ran out of subject to type. Actually there's many issues to touch right now but I cannot because even within this private blog it is a rather private topic.
Ah whatever.



Who's to say where the wind will take you
Who's to say what it is will break you
I don't know, which way the wind will blow
Who's to know when the time has come around
Don't want to see you cry...

ofblack&white
10:46 PM

ofblack&white
12:12 PM

On the Highway
When I'm alone yet not alone
Voicing out loud my thoughts
To my own mind.


On the Highway
Feasting eyes on trees yet
not exactly seeing.
Songs blaring on the stereo yet
not comprehending
unfathomable tunes.


On the Highway
Like I'm losing all senses and
conversing only to myself.


On the Highway
it's when I feel everything
and nothing at all.

ofblack&white
2:21 PM

I was verily tempted to purchase this pair of dunks. Really really tempted. Brown-ish, I first saw it 3 weeks ago and fell in love with it.
Whatever.

Had that usual tuition and whatnots, bought bananas for the girls and Lynn had so much fun with the hot dog.

Lynn: Ouch the hot dog is so hot!
Ili: Blow the hot dog lah.

And many jokes pertaining to that entailed. I had quite a run in the afternoon helping out Ameerah with goalkeeping like those little one-on-ones and throwing catching, all barefooted in the damp field. I sprained Big Toe due to a misguided toe-poke. I was quite sad I didn't get to watch the whole match because of tuition and it's a bigger shame seeing they won 3-0 against the annoying school (Ngee Ann) who had their COACH (an adult MALE) as their goalkeeper. That really annoys me but hey they won anyway ((:

I saw the Eye Candy and finally showed Lynn and that annoying ANNOYING girl went to shout out Eye Candy's name but thankfully she didn't manage to call out properly (silenced by a slap HAHA).


I have many markings to finish, Vectors to study and a study plan for Damsel. How demanding my students are now. The cheek. I'll bring out a rattan cane so I can spank each and everyone of them.

ofblack&white
11:06 PM

Awesome day is today. With sea water splashing, wind breezing and all that ache on the arms and shoulders. Kneeboarding and I tried the skis! Fucking hard to stay on the water with the skis. But awesome!


Had some tuitions in the aft, you know all the crackjack people the school offer. It makes life interesting. And OMG I saw eyecandyy twice today and all my most loyal student can say was "Ili, do I look like I'm interested?" So bitchy but am happy anyway. ((: Hot dogs with many toppings damsels in dire need of saving from differentiation girls with big boobs (remember Yuen?) all the shit. Went off to Parkway and had dinner the likes. Famous Amos with everything inside, Braun Buffel and I saw pretty cat wallet and dunks that scream BUY ME but good sense prevailed. Oh ya satays and sugarcane juice TOPS the list and OOOHHH I was given a nice LOTR ring, you know, that ring with the engravings. ((:

I was bumped out by end of the day, with last-minute tuition arranged that got me all helter skelter and swearing but the money comes.

I realised something, Mun always hug me but I never hug her back. Haha don't worry I shall squeeze you till you're dead. Yessss no more bitchiness.


It is such a simple but filled-with-nice-people day. How I love these kind of days.


An email from an uncle;

Dear cousins, anak sedara sepupu dan swewaktu dgn nye,

You are invited to an afternoon tea party (dont expect nasi tomato, roti bamia, bonesteak etc) at my place on Sat, 8 Sept 07, from 2-6pm (kenduri doa selamat already scheduled on 30/8 at masjid) so no formal event except acara meriahkan majlis, menyanyikan lagu kebangsaan at 4pm sempena 50tahun merdeka.

Since this is the tail-end of the 1week school holidays and I am catering for high-tea dishes(similar dish to Carousel but bawah sikit. Order dari merry-go-round. paham tak?), plse RSVP so that I can estimate brape orang. Nak bring more food such as jelly jepon, rojak petis, cheesecake, dan yg sedap2, tuan rumah tak akan menolak.

Sekian termia kasih.

Fucking funny, my extendeds have a great sense of humour when they chose to exercise it.


So I think I'll be hitting the sack now, it has been a loooong daay and will be an EXTREMELY looong daaay tomorrow but thankfully I'll just be buying bananas not mixing drinks anymore. Talk about being the maid.




There are so many things running through my mind right now and typing a happy entry maybe would do me some good.



Tell me, people come and go. So do they.
But what are they?
They are just people.
People who come and go.


People I'd rather not speak to for now, and from the looks of it, ever.

ofblack&white
10:55 PM

Tiring... Well then what's new eh. I went off to Stansfield to send in the cheque and Mr Rizvi told me something very unbelievable.

Ili: How's my friend, she came the other time right? (referring to Kat)
Mr Rizvi: Oh yes she wanted to talk to me or something. She looked very sweet.

^$#@&*^


No comments.


I sat with Fifa drilling her functions, besides me Amira asked Econs and Faiz diagonally across being as he is. Then Bala came by and apparently I learn quite funny facts from them.

And the bunch of soccer girls by the next table.

And Joan coming ever often to ask Math questions, with Maybelline and her most ridiculously long hair. She'll give Juon a run for her money.


I had dinner outside and I'm just back, narrowly missing parent's call. Haha imagine they'll go bonkers knowing that I reached home at 2245 without telling them anything. Mima ought to be shot. Just because I find this waiter cute she kept calling him for orders and what nonsense and TALKED SO LOUDLY SAYING THAT I FIND HIM CUTE. OMG talk about embarrassing moments here please.


Fifa read me a line from a poem. I do think it's sad.

and
You will tell me you love me
tonight at noon.

There's no such thing as 'tonight at noon', so there's no such thing that 'you will tell me you love me'.

Ain't that sad?

I still cannot let go. Lynn Tan, you're wrong. She was never my past. She's still the present.
Seems to be that way for the long moment.


Anyway stop being so emomomo I so look forward till tomorrow. Something exciting this way comes!

ofblack&white
11:02 PM

Gosh sitting out on the same chair for six hours could do wonders to the size of the butt.
Doubling the size more like.

So much to do you know. Throwing them loci questions, the usual integration and stats. Very hard to keep focus and BITCHY apparently are my students new campaign against me. Ish goes without saying, but Pei En?! Ha they must be learning a lot from me. More than Math. And the PSP is high in demand.


ANYWAY someone accused me for getting lost in Bugis when she's the lost party too. Ms Lim May Yee Tiny, you better watch yourself before I attack you. I got your address remember? And I'm not a GIANT. You're just small. Haha!

A seventh month (superstitious month for the Chinese) joke:

MY: If you hear voices around and don't see anyone talking it means that it's the ghosts.
Me: There's only 2 answers to that.
Number one, it's the ghosts.
Number two, it's just you talking and I can't see you because you're too small.
MY: -.-

Don't worry, when you're dead I'll burn boyfriends for you (:


Anyway I had some serious chatting session before tuition and I was told that religion and all that doesn't change who you really are. But the point is, religion shapes who you will be.
Kind of odd to have deep conversations with a person I don't really know.
But nice anyway (:


Big headache now lol. Must be all that numbers.

ofblack&white
7:29 PM

I finally cleared my application to Stansfield and boy such a relief to not think about it anymore. Big sorry to students when I canceled everything today.

Bigger sorry to them when they got to know I'm going KL for the next weekends ) :

(Mun I miss you!)



I did some spot of 'baby-sitting' in the morning, sorely tempted to grill her head but good sense prevailed.



I met tiny for dinner at Bugis just now and I think we're just not meant to meet each other. Like before meeting can get lost? -.-
Gossip gossip.


And Kat is probably going to be my schoolmate for the next three years. Hurrah!


Of glass walls; Somehow a glass wall was erected God-knows-when but it gets on my nerves. Because it isn't the other party's fault. They do no wrong yet here I am being... like that. That wall often wants to block out the other party's existence and I tried so hard to break it but it doesn't seem to work. I am getting very annoyed with the Glass Wall which was up almost a month ago because it doesn't seem to want to crumble like biscuits at any moment. And it's entirely due to my inferiority or whatever flaw in me. It's certainly going to make life fucking tough to get by.
Screw glass walls!


Balls man. I miss Aqil and Nur and Tisya all of a sudden. I so want to kiss and hug those cousins and shower them with all the gifts I can buy (not that I don't buy things for them; on the contrary, they get things on a monthly basis -.-)


Some things never change...

ofblack&white
10:17 PM

You know, lies. They kill us. It nearly killed me. Nearly got a heart attack. I'm so smooth at lying it scares me. And it all piled up and ganged up against me and now it's catching up to me. All of it. Karma? Maybe so. It'll come back to me I'm sure, and I'm running so hard I'm out of breath already.

So moral of the story children, refrain from lying because it does you no good.


Today I met Joan for an hour plus nearly two for her crash course in Math. Honestly it's good to start early (it's financially good for me) and it does a whole lot of wonders for your tests (passing your tests does, again, wonders to your morale) and etc etc etc. She used to give me that dao face but now all smiley and laughter (: And lots of things in common like pinball machines, guitars, big toy planes and. Yep.


Ok everyone fights. Argues. Whatever word applicable. It's such a migraine-inducing activity that I wonder sometimes why WHY do people do such nonsense. And wouldn't it be better to sit back and give way rather than stick to your (very) stubborn mindset. Of course this doesn't go out to anyone.


I am feeling very... I don't know how to put it in words. Content definitely doesn't qualify. Hm. Something's missing.


Oh the perks in Life. You win some you lose some. My favourite phrase recently. Kind of cheered me up every time I feel like the world's against me (which is becoming quite often lately) because well,
you win some and you just lose some.

ofblack&white
9:41 PM

Oh yes you know, the King and I is AWESOME. I love I love I lovvvee the show. Very nice (:
Anyway he came pick me up for dinner before we did a funny mad dash since we only finished dinner at 750pm. It helps that it's at Shaw Towers so it's less than five minutes cab ride.
I love the king. He is comical haha I want to watch again! Walked around esplanade One Fullerton in the dead of the night. City lights are always beautiful.


Met Kat on Tuesday too. Lunch at LJS and many chit chats. You want overseas trip you plan it! Walked about looking for cheap games but not finding any. Went to teach Anna and she got a heck of a nagging from me please. AND she can get mad at me for that lol. Oh well. Maybe what I think is right is wrong.


So yesterday I went Sarah Munshi's house to see Oreo. Oreo is SO CUTE I TELL YOU. (it's a kitten by the way) and it's just so cute and cuddly and naughty. I so want to bring it home but sadly I can't. Dropped by Naz's place for lunch. Anyway I saw a white Honda Jazz so naturally I think of Zhong's mum. Then I saw the license plate and lo behold it IS her. Haha.
Went to Stansfield for a while to get applications done and back to Tampines for dinner with Nadz. She was super exasperated from talking to me. Haha sorry lah. And when I turn my head Fana was there. Lol what a small world ((:

Parents are getting me really worried ) :


Ok I hope good weekends will come by but that is unlikely seeing that I have tuition slots filled during the weekends and seeing Ms Tiny tomorrow. How good can weekends be? Lol.

ofblack&white
10:37 AM

Good morning! Hahah It isn't too cold or too warm a b-e-a-u-tiful day (:


Today is going to be fun I hope; Pass Pei En Harry Potter, meet Kat, go for tuition and for King And I tonight! I'm super excited can!


I bought a new game yesterday and it is relatively cheap, compared to others. Burnout Legends. Fucking fun fucking fast please. Mun looks like an ass playing because she will curse so much and give me a look when she crashed, which (goes without saying) is very often.


I was thinking of baking cookies today but I'm too lazy. Ha.

Oh. Of all people to bump into yesterday and at the most unlikely places (think the junction at Bedok) is Star! She's a tutor too. Haha and I was offered an admin post in SR.


I messaged some long-lost people on Sunday night like Vanessa Anne Lim, Esther Francine Zhong the likes. Man I miss jc life and those sticky sweaty soccer moments. Lol!


Ok better get bathing!

ofblack&white
9:11 AM

Despite the relatively good week, premenstrual syndrome really spoils it all. Bugger it all. Anyway Mun's REALLY BAD DAY story perks up life you know, drippy and all. Don't worry hun I'll keep it shut.


So this week has been about (in random order) PMS teaching noisy loud students at Starbucks dinner at Compass and lunch at East fireworks in the sky losing patience feeling alone lunch at Bedok SINGING AT STAIRWELLS (omgomg) PSPing MGS POps morning sessions at Macs 18 year-old sopranos who calls Ish in the most peculiar way being broke Swensen's lunch with Chinese desserts at Bugis ((: sleeping over grandma's food shopping scrabbles reminiscence knowing Adela is capable of loving animals night cryings Virtua Tennis.


Ok pray my mood will be better the coming week. Becoming as snappy as a fish.


I'm still not over you yet. After two years.
Not yet.

ofblack&white
1:32 PM

Oh dear, I didn't bank on liking someone I pretended to like.
And what makes it more complicated is that he likes me back.


Oh dear oh dear. What will people say of obvious differences.

ofblack&white
10:48 PM

It was last year that we built the sandcastle thing, no? I remember it was very slightly cloudy and some of the Asixers had a little picnic nearby.
It's quite a day where a lot happened for me too lol.


Anyway life's pretty nice though mundane. Slept over grandma's the night before with Nur, cycling about here and there. Earning money, spending on an overly expensive but worth it game console, went food-shopping with friends, visited a nice dessert shop at Bugis, being bitched by Mun, nothing new.


I cannot wait for next week's King And I! And a possible cycling cum wake boarding session to spice up the life.



What more, I can't wait for this afternoon with friends over my place ((:

ofblack&white
10:57 AM

TIRED. Haha fucking tired these days I don't know why, even with the sufficient eight-hours sleep. Yesterday I had three kids for H1, then I went off to Stansfield for some seminar, and gotten 1.5k study grant. Hurrah!
Mainly Q&A session. For my course there'll be shitload of Math. You know, using Math to solve economic problem nonsense. Mainly calculus, not much of stats and all. (:


Do you know why I'm up at this hour? Because I have tuitions from 10 to 6. God that sounds so office hours. Up for a long day. I need a good breakfast to last through. Lucky it's at the same place from... ten to six. MacDonald's will soon impose a rental fee on me for conducting tuitions there.


Fadiah viewed me on Friendster so naturally I took a look at her. 'Cinder-ella' was her name, which was already putting me off. And after looking through photos I have just a thought in mind: MINAH. Haha ok very stereotypical of me but she's like Siti you know? Doesn't look THAT much of a minah in school but outside, hohoho. Watch out soccer team a new Siti is born!


Very random, that above paragraph but I find it amusing how we got a Francine, Cas, Siti, Nurul and an Amanda (Fara, since she's so tall) in the new team. Haha.

Ok le sigh. Time for work.

ofblack&white
8:42 AM

Le sigh. The wave of irritation that rises up at every little thing plagues me again. I don't like to be in this mood, because I feel so hotheaded.


Had tuition with Adela in town and pretty much covered alot. Met with Shaz and Zirah for late lunch/dinner while messaging Farn about her blondie. I finally got my VT3 card, and contemplated on buying a NDS Lite. Cool you know, Adela was playing with hers before I came buy and she say its worth it.


If I'm going away, your heart's coming too.

ofblack&white
10:09 PM